The cold.

Its much more lonely now than it as been in a long time. Im starting to realize that the people I want to believe in and that i want to believe i can trust really arent there for me. That the people i last expected to be there and stand up for me and pick me up when im down are always there and are now making a point to show it. The people i appreciate the least are the ones that come to my rescue and i would like to apologize to them. Im giving up on the ones that dont care about me and trying to focus more on the people that sincerely give a shit about me and want me to keep to going. Im feeling the affects of losing all my friends and its really taken its toll on me this past month. But now im starting to appreciate my real friends. and i apologize to them for taking so long to realize that they are my friends.
Yes the cold is harsh and lonely bu now i know if i knock on your door, i'll be welcomed with open arms without a second thought. Thank You.