Babysitting....

Before i always said i didnt like kids and its still true. i really only like the chill ones, the ones that dont fight with you half as much, or are crazy A.D.D. (no offense to anyone who is.....), kids like that i can handle. Anyway...

So recently my mom started seeing this guy who i have dubbed Marky Mark, that is his name to me whether he likes it or not. original no not really, but i personally dont care all that much. So i've had to give up my friday night a couple times to babysit his 10 year old. I dont know about you guys but when i started first grade i was pretty much on my own, it was everyman for himself in my house. So i was home a lone a lot, and knew how to take care of myself. The first time they brought her over for me to watch her i asked my mom "why doesnt she take care of herself? she is 10 years old and not living in a ghetto city. i dont see the problems here"
it never really occured to me that my living situation as a kid was not so common, most parents dont voluntarily leave their child home alone until they're like 13, in the city normally 15. But being strong headed me i was like what the fuck i have to watch this little so you two can go out on a date? i had to give up plans with my friends, i can tell you what if i didnt love my mom and i didnt want her to be happy then i wouldnt be doing it. Its nice to see her happy, and silly, and girlie...its kinda weird sometimes but i can deal as crazy as she makes me, i make her just as crazy so its mutual.
So i've made nice with his daughter and babysat a couple more times and realized that i probly dont want to have kids. I know that down the road im probly gonna change my mind because i want to adopt. But until said time down said road, i dont want kids. Tonight this little chica called me her pretend sister and i was like "OOH SNAP" what do i say to that? sorry, i've got one already. Chica has one older brother and one little brother.
Honestly i dont what to do with her when she comes over cuz she's SO GIRLIE! i was never a little girl who sat and played with barbie's  or "Stuffies" as she calls them. I was outside playing kickball in the cull-da-sack with the boys; getting dirty, scraping my knees. Needless to say i was a tom-boy and had a damn good time. But she's like the complete opposite of me when i was a kid. That and she's crazy hyper, and always has to be entertained....UGH! Marky Mark babies her really badly and wants my mother and i to help him discipline her which i find as him slightly copping out making us the bad guys. Mainly making my mom the bad guy because her and i have sort of an understanding going on now. She gave me attitude a few times and i set her straight and she hasnt done it since so things are getting better. Back to the sister bit: im not entirely sure how to take it because that's my mom's life. ya know? as much as she wants me to be apart of it i personally dont feel the need. Her boyfriend has nothing to do with me, but now im stuck because his kid sees me as a pretend big sister. How did i get roped in to this? i say sure i'll babysit once....ends up being like five times now this little girl looks up to me and is doing the whole i'll eat what you eat, i like what you like thing and its making me crazy. im not a good role model this kid likes justin beiber and lady gaga.....and she looks up to me? WHAT?! if anything i should be insulted..... ugh lady gaga the worst thing the music industry has ever come out with...EVER.
before to get signed to a label you had to have some type of talent, now all you need is myspace and people will buy your songs. It sad that this is what the music industry has turned into, the kids of today will have carpel tunnel and No social skills compliments to internet and cell phones. We as people are becoming more an more distant to one another and its insane. But ANYWAYS.....So ya this kid, she's nice and is starting to confide in me, that she's being bullied so im like "Okay, she pushed you, Push her back!"  (just me being me) and she's like "No my daddy will take care of it." im like o.O  "Your daddy cant hold our hand through everything. If have a problem like this in school you need to deal with it and show these other girls that you arent gonna take their crap. then they will leave you alone for good. V.S. your coming in taking time out of work and telling everybody's parents, you'll just be a tattle tale. NO body wants to be a tattle tale." then she hugged me and im thinking umm idk if anyone told you but im not a hugger. please get off.  taking  MY sister's advice and giving this girl some attention and letting her talk knowing that im actually listening, caused me not to push her off which i probly would've done otherwise. im not good at showing affection incase you all missed that. lol
then we sat in bed and watched tv until she fell asleep. then mom and marky mark came home and he took her away. I dont know if she took my advice but she hasnt said anything else about being bullied so i hope those little brats backed off.
SO ya babysitting....really got me thinking. lol