I don't know

So my friend is coming over on thursday and i'm not really sure you can even call her my friend still. But we're gonna see where it all goes. In the last two years she's broken basically all plans that we made. i'd make them she'd break them, she'd make them then SHE'D break them. i grown tired of being ditched, then having her run to me when her boyfriend breaks up with her. i'm tired of it and i know that if we stay "close" then i'm going to be putting myself back in the same situation. i'm not trying to sound conceeded but its a Horrible feeling when you get ditched over and over again. It's like "If you didn't want to hang out with me then that's all you had to say." its gotten to the where i feel i did something wrong to make her not hang out with me. I discussed this with her last year and she said she was sorry and that she was horrible person and that she felt terrible...well apparenly she didn't feel that terrible about since we're back to square one. ya know.

but yeah so there's that.

next, someone i know is finding things out about me that i NEVER posted or mentioned or even hinted about. Seriously CREEPY! i don't even talk to the kid anymore and my friends don't tell him about me. So what's the deal? how is he getting this information?! it kinda REALLY freaks me out A LOT!

next. I saw one of my "ex" friends today. she got out of her dad's car and didn't even acknowledge that i was alive. which i guess is to be expected, but idk it caused a lot of flash backs. its weird walking by a place that you used to hangout. and now your not welcomed there anymore. hmm. it seems i can say that about a lot of people these days not being welcomed into peoples homes. One thing i hate most is losing friends and i know people come in adn out of your life but it hurts when it one of your Best friends and they walk out on you. and that seems to always happen to me, not just a friend. But one that i'm close to and its hard for me to be "close" with people. Whatever.....

Moving on...Next
my friend mander is having a whole shit load of boy problems and i feel bad for her. i've never had boy problems atleast now that have been brought to my attention. but yeah i'm not gonna say what happened with her because its not your buiness.

Next....i got this Random ass email from some chica who is "in danger" and is tryin to get into america because her life is in danger and she needs all my information to transfer all her money into my american account. hmm....umm. No. i'm sorry, no. not gonna happen. i have no way of knowing its Not a scam. so i'm sorry random who i have never met before your life is in your own hands.

Next, i'm thinking about chopping my hair off.....again. =D

no idk yet. i think i might just leave it and let it grow out some more. it hasnt' been this long since like 8th grade. it's pretty crazy.

So that's about it for now.