I broke up with my boyfriend last night.
and he made me feel like the worst person on this planet.
It takes two people to fuck a relationship.
not ONE! NOT JUST ME!
its' not all my fault. not this time or any other.
he never listened to anything i said, especially when i said stop.
everything just went in one ear and out the other.
i really liked him potentially loved him but the longer i was with him the more i found out about him. i realized that he's not mentally sound. He's not all there in the head.
he's manic depressive to the fullest extent and seems to only be getting worse.
everythinks that i'm teh bad guy but no one really knows him.
he would write me poetry and then scream in my face for breathing too loud.
all last night i cried thinking i was terrible and that i should go to his house and apologize and take him back. but my emotional stablity couldn't handle it.
i miss him
no
i miss the idea of him.
i want a boyfriend that's normal-ish
PLEASE.
cuz it seems that i alwasy get stuck with the crazy's or the super depressed or they have something seriously wrong with them. i want a normal life for a little while.
no boys
just self recovery.
1 comments:
Hang in there kid :( You're going to be fine. What ever doesn't kill you, will make you stronger. I know that sounds cliche' but it's true. I know because I still exist. One foot in front of the other down a new path that awaits but mind you, it's not going to be comfortable nor easy.....
peace,
CArp
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