cant do it.

Not like This, my mom tells me to be more loving more sisterly to my roomate but i can't when mom treats her diffrently. she snuck out last night, and didn't leave a note on where she was today and mom didn't say anything to her.
if i did something like that then she would've bitten my head off, sick or not.
then she tried to feed me this crap on "she's not really my kid so i can't really do anything."
then why the fuck are you telling me to treat her like my sister?

There's that and senior year coming to a close. i'm stressing out because i have so much crap to do and finish for school. my mom is seriously sick which freaks me out because she's in like serious pain and crying and shit and she NEVER does that. EVER.

i've just been super annoyed lately with everything because its all so stressful.
and i think i kinda took some of that out on "somebody" two nights ago, by taking a joke the wrong way.....it was just bad timing on his part. after calling me shallow and stupid  i kinda got really pissed off and we're still "fighting" about it. and i feel really stupid for it.
i'm not apologizing until he does because either way i was still offended. idk i find calling people shallow or anything like that highly offensive. and i guess eh didn't know that even though he freaks if you insult his "Pride"  but whatever. i'm not apologizing until he does.

i'm getting really fed up with this shit people seem to keep putting in front of me. its dumb and ridiculous.
i dont have the time or the patience to deal with it. i just wanna fuckin live somewhere else. i really do mom and sarah and can live happily ever after because mom finally has a daughter that "needs" her...sorry she wasnt there for me, sorry i became self suffcient. i'm just fuckin done with everything.