Brainstorm

if there were ever a day
or a date
or a time
that i could've read your mind
that i could've made you mine
kept you safe
and made you whole again
the blink of an would never have been fast enough to get to you
to keep you there in my line of vision
long enough for me to say that i belong to you
even though most dont believe its true.
i do


with every passing life
and every fading dreamer
a small piece of m heart goes with them
and their strive to be something creative
not just another face in the crowd.
losing so many good friends and genuine people
leaves me with an emptying box for a heart.
so many pieces lost
when i tell you i love you
i mean i love you
its not an everyday thing for me.
im gonna say i love you two weeks after we start dating
not gonna happen
once i know you'll stick around
and always make me smile
then yes i might say it

It seems like lately that being loved and loving someone are like a strange dream i keep having. It feels like the one that truely loves me for me isnt real. People always say there is someone for everyone, but is there? honestly is there?
how many people honestly believe that?
especially now a days with computers, what happened to actually growing some balls and going up to talk to someone you like? instead you look them up online and shoot them an email. idk maybe im just not meant for the 21st centurey.
from im just going to ramble about where honesty and loyalty went so im just gonna stop here.
i havent posted on this in a LONG time.
and i didnt intend to ever again. but tonight i was without a pen and paper.
so here you go cyber world of procrastinating bullshit.
my depression spelt out in badly versed phrases.