Tuesday is my Monday this week

things are ridciluous as usual....sarah is having a whole boat load of problems. i'm stressing out over all my stuff: School: my online math class, then my after school math class coming up in may. plus my French, English, Creative writing, and TA for ms. Leahy (which is really just busy working). then there's home life: where i'm trying to learn how to not be territorily, and be nice and sisterly so sarah who never really had a sterdy home. i mean yes i love her, she's awesome....i just need to get past myself lol and she needs a fucking back bone, other wise i'm gonna chew her to shreds and not realize it one of these days. then feel like an ass.
so the quicker she toughens up the easier my life will be. hurting her feelings will be one less thing to worry about. lol
things have been "fixed" with ahrielle. we're friends again, not that we ever stopped, we just kinda cut each other off. but anyway......

yesterday i was super nostalgic, i dont know why....so i got a bunch of photos and cut them up and pasted them into my new journal, i consider it a chrisaning (i know i spelled that worng, but i dont feel like looking it up so there)
just as things seem to get easier they get a little harder too.
i'm so EXCITED! my camera should be coming in the end of this week! its a Cannon Rebel EOS (i'm drooling as we speak)
i'm gonna have to buy another battery for it though. other than that I"M SO EXCITED! that is what i'm making my self look forward too.
Oh yeah, and there's the doctors....and all their fuck ups. they messed up my appointment, so what else is new? lol now instead of the headahce clinic i'm going to the sleep clinic. because i'm having problems with both. lol anways.......YEAH CAMERA!!!! 10 pixel. xD i'm so excited.
plus my moms friend wants me to do the photography for her wedding.=D
then my friend ashley is getting married in the summer i think, in june. i don't remember whast josh said.
but i have a dress that will work for both. Oh Yeah. one i get for, one i get to celebrate.
i'm triyng this new thing callled being positive....and its kinda hard work. lol